Friday, April 07, 2006
hmm, not been updating lately.. cos suddenly it seems like so many things are happenin ard mi, 240306 ( our 10 month anniversary), in the middle of the nite about 3 am plus, someone smsed mi, told mi that, my dear baby soldier, met an accident in camp.. i couldn't believe at first, i thot it was april fool joke though it's still early to april.. then i smsed back and found that, it was the truth, he had an accident and he's admitted in the hospital.. i couldn't sleep, i was shock, i didn't cry, i guess i didn't know how to react then, i was worried for his condition.. i jus stayed awake for the whole nite, hopin that mornin arrives fast so that i can rush to the hospital to see him..
abt 8am plus, dear rang mi up in the hospital, using the hospital phone, he told mi , he had a small deep cut at his chin and he broke his wrist, i thot oh~, small cut plus a fracture on wrist only, nothin else.. i wanted to meet him fast.. at 10 plus, met his family and yufan they all.. and off we go to the hos... when we reach ther, he was sent to CT scan.. and i heard that he had concusion, loss of memory, i was worried sick. we waited for some time.. ahh.. finally. he's out.. oh gosh~ the first time i saw his face i was shock.. ahhH~~ it was terrible . half of his face, the skin was peeled off. and over the phone he told me he only have a small deep cut on his chin.. i look at him, he's a bit blur, he was a bit confused.. he told mi alot of things when he was in a daze, he said things like, "i really love u alot, i'm sorry for the things i do and said to hurt u, i love u .. i feel terrible when u're not beside mi.. " i felt so sad suddenly..the first day when i visit him, i went back by his friend's car, i cant; hold back my tears, i cried silently in his car.. i dunno why, i feel terrible..
for the rest of the days, he remain almost like that, but of course a bit better off.. he also went for surgery.. he came out , he was well.. thank God. i didn't noe how to cope with both my studies and relationship, i told myself i must concentrate on my studies cos my exams jus next week. but i can't, if i never visit him, i totally cannot concentrate, i really hope i can pass my exams...
now he's at home recuperating, and finally my exams are over.. i'm still meetin him .. most of the time.. =) our relationship became even better after this whole lot of thing happen.. much sweeter and more love..^^
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Friday, March 17, 2006
arghz~ i woke up in the morning, feeling so fresh, preparing to go school, after i bathe, i took out my guitar, my mum saw, and ask why take out the guitar? i say cos today got lesson, don't need to pay wan.. can learn for free.. she scold mi crazy.. i think she's the wan who's being crazy.. i told her nicely why i brought the guitar to school, it's not like i shout at her or wad.. i was damn angry, but i hold back my temper and ask her, "why i talk to u nicely, u cannot answer back nicely, ytd also like that, today also like that, can don't shout at mi early in the morning anot, bring guitar to school got wrong meh.." then she say, " why cannot shout, u siao wanna learn this learn that, cannot study properly , must everyday go out, cannot tidy up the room, 'shen jing bing'.. you wanna move out, u wanna married, go la go la " see wad kinda f***ing words she use at mi for no reason at all i din even say anything about moving out or gettin married or wad.., in that particular morning she scold mi crazy umpteen times.. wad's wrong with her, i packed my room already eh, those books lyin on the tables were not mine, it's my sis.. i'm so damn piss off, she finish shouting me, now she's angry, she shout at my sis too, she say cannot go out, stay at home, do all the houseworks.. ha, my sis don't even give a damn
ytd, was veh peaceful in my family at night, while watching tv, i whispered to my mum, "mee, can i go class outing with my frens.. during last week of April, with my class mates..." i haven tell her where i'll be going.. guess wad she say.." u can dont everytime make decision urself anot, can study anot, i nv see ppl like ur age always wanna go outting, cannot concentrate on ur studies issit, ppl at ur age is meant for studies and nothing else.." wad f*** is this,in the first place i din even make any decision, i din even say," oh i bought the ticks le, die die also must go, i still put her on my mind, and her her for permission, at least i still respect her.. after hearing her shout, i dun intend at all to tell her where actually i wanna go, she'll sure scold mi 'shen jing bing'..
so she mean, ppl my age, cannot go outting, cannot learn other things, jus study and study, until when i pass out as a nurse then i can go wad, outting with my friends, as if next time i'll have so much time... wad's the problem with her, she can't talk nicely to mi, i'm already talking to her so nicely, at least she say cannot go nicely , then i'll not go lar, she must always shout at mi wan.. she say, "dunno why give birth to u and raise u up, so useless and stupid, everytime wanna go out only..." if in the first place she dun wan mi jus abort mi oki, don't let mi come into this world and hear her bark those f***king words at mi.. i've enough of all this shit okie, enough is enough.
she always think she's right i'm wrong, i'm also a human okie, i have feelings.....
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
hmmm, ytd was Rachel's birthday, i finished school early and went orchard to shop for her present with dear..=) hmm, i tried a couple of clothes, but it's all not nice except for the crown belt which is 40.90 bucks. it was really veh nice, but i couldn't afford.. hmm, i choose one minty green shirt, which i initially wanted to buy for dear during one of the occasion couldn't remember when was that, then i asked him to try.. it was quite nice..=) jus that the size dosen't suit, and he don't like the pocket on his chest.. then we also notice any quite similar shirt at Domanchi, was nicer, he said. okie, then we're super hungry, erm actually it was mi la.. haha.. we went to eat some crap food, which is not nice at all.. not nice! .. then we walk around and went off..
u knoe, i think sometimes, i'm the cause of conflict, why must i mention things that will cause some conflict? Initially, he said, he might be learning DJ from one of his frens.. then i started to feel, didn't he told mi a few hours back that he's gonna learn hair cuttin from his friend who jus open a salon, after he ORD.. it was oki that he wanna learn that, now he talks about dj, and he still has to cope with his NTI, part time studies and some part time job, friends, girlfriend and family.. the first thing that came onto my mind was, does he have the time for all this, cos if it was me, i doubt so.. so i started to tell him that, and he goes on and on... talking about alot of things like success and some other things that i couldn't remember.. it's true that i really dun feel secure when he mentioned he wanna pick up as many skills as possible within the next few years.. but after wad he said, maybe he's right, he's capable.. he said many things that shut mi up, that i jus didn't knoe how to say.. but no matter wad, i'll still be a supportive gf will not anyhow object wad he wants to pursue.. i jus wanna say, i didn't mean to interfere his future plans,i jus wanna tell him how i feel and now that he said, he had so much confidence in himself, i'll surely have confidence in him, believing that he'll achieve wadever he wans in the future.......=D
after the orchard, we went home.. =).. he got a veh weird habit, and that is, taking off all his shirt and pants and everything on , except his boxers and socks, i couldn't stop laughin, i know it's bad of mi to do that, but i jus can't stop.. he was angry or wad, i dunno, he took off his socks and smear it on my face and try to run away, i caught hold off him, i was sitting on his chair , that has wheels, so it was quite slippery.. when i hold on to his arm, the chair slid and roll over his little toe, he was damn angry and pain, but i didn't do it on purpose, i swear.. and he scold F***, and push mi onto the ground with his mighty strength ..-_-''' , i was in a state of shock and traumatised, cos no one has ever did that to me, even though he came and hug mi and say sorry, i was still shocked.. i was thinking, at that moment.. "he has a high possibility becoming a wife battering husband in the future..." hahha...
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Monday, March 13, 2006
yeah~.. finally no more exams for the time being.. ahhah.. feel so 'light'
, i had my skills assessment today,jus now while waiting for my turn for assessment, i was so tensed up, jus like on sat, before i go in for my piano theory exam, i was so nervous, until i start to talk rubbish and do funny things.. i din notice that myself, was my fwens that told mi that, maybe i was too stressed huh?! Though i flung one of the skills, i still feel happy, cos i din really study much, thank God, that i got a simple case scenario, blame myself for failing one of the skills, i jus failed by administering the wrong dosage..haiz, initially, i told the teacher the correct amt which is 12 units of insulin, cos the patient's sugar lvl is 15mmol ma.. then i think i 'pa jiao' or wad la, mixed up 15 and 12, in the end, i told the teacher, i'm administering 15 units,wad the toot* rite.. ahaha.. anyway, i think the teacher did the right thing by failng mi, cos imagine, if i go to the ward, and give wrong dosage, the consequences will be.. ahhh~~.. so i gotta retake my injection skills on 23/3/06.. hmm..
Psycho exam will be 3 weeks later, and i dun really knoe wad the hell the teacher is talkin bout, followed by bio, and the rest of the subject.. i jus hope i'll get better grades this sem, tired of seeing B's and C's and D's.. wanna see A's... =) now that i already got one bio prac A, i'll have to work harder in order to get more A's.... =PpP i'll have to sacrifice my sleeping time.. hmm, by the end of this sem, i'll be like a panda + piggy, panda because i'll have to burn the midnight oil often, pig because when i'm stressed, i forgot my meals and i eat at the wrong time.. haha... guess it's time for mi to exercise~!
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
hmmm.. i jus finished readin wee chiew's bloggie, her stories always start with sorrows but end with sweet love.. it's nice readin her blog.. i knoe, i shldn't be readin blogs now, but i'm way too bored of studyin.. argh~ can hardly open my eyes now.. i dun understand why our schedule for this sem seems to be so crap.. see, wed-clinical exam, thurs-debate presentation, fri-research exam, sat-piano exam.. followin mon- skills assessment, after 2 weeks, 4 more exams comin up..after exams, i'll have 2 months of attachment.. gosh~! how am i going to cope with all these.. how? time seems not enuff for mi.. not enuff for mi to slp, study and go out.. money also seem not enought.. what has the world become... i'm so stress..stress.. u knoe..=E ..
ytd, ma frens and i were talkin bout future life.. some say gettin engaged soon after finish school, some say gettin married when 23, 26, 28... then we talked bout.. our career, overseas studies.. it's abit frightening to talk bout all these...cos after we graduate, we'll have to be independent, start to save up, do everything on our own.. oh my.~ =x
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Sunday, February 26, 2006
woah~ i'm at my aunt's condo.. so fun .. com is mine for the whole day, nobody to fight with mi.. =P .. today, woke up at 8am because, my lil cousin, so noisy he keep askin mi to wake up and follow him to swim... finally, i woke up.. clean up and went off to eat, after eating, we went swimmin...=))
swimmin coah for the day...=D
poor lil guy shiverin, refuse to get in the water
never mind, swimmin coach will carry him into the waters..=PpP
"ther, this is how u swim...."
yeah~! swimmin lesson finish lo!cheeze~
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Saturday, February 25, 2006
oh no.. i'm still awake.. ahhhh~!! somebody , sing me to slp please... .. ..
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hmm... i'm so bored, it's 1am sharp .. i can't fall asleep, i'm not tired. how? guess it was the large ice milk tea's fault. haizZ.. all bcos of Pearly .. =P niwayz, today was coOl.. after school at about 6pm , i met up with pearly cos , it's been too long since we met last time.. haha.. she called mi up and i suggested we meet, at town.. hmmmm..met her at heeren, as usual, she looks the same lar,, haha. when i saw her, i'll feel like as though , i'm back in sec school, always got tis feeling.. hmmm.. we walked ard, chatted, lots lots of things.. we bought girls stuff.. she's really a shopaholic, even though she got lotsa new foundation, she'll still think of wanna get another new wan anot, =_=''' haha.. Ben's gonna kill her if he knew she bought alot of unnecessary stuffs, like nail polish, bla..=pPp, we talked bout our guys.. and her sch stuffs, she's gonna leave for thailand on 3 march if i'm not wrong, i'll miss her lots.. most importantly, i'll write a list of things and ask her buy for mi... heheh* ~ .. she's going ther for 6wks, attachment, i wonder if it's me, how wld i survived~
ehz.. i realised, we're so close that we are almost like sisters, cos we share almost everything under the sky.. +winks+ she knows wad i'm talkin.. ahaha.. hmmm..anyway ya.. we went to jp after that, and sat at mos burger ordered 2 large ice milk tea, and drank our fill.. haha.. chat and chat non stop.. finally it's time.. i gotta go home.. so we left.. arghz. i realli wanna stay longer.. =)
on the way home, i msged dear =), when i reached home, he still haven reply, so i went to bathe, after i finished, he slept.. =_='''zzzzZzz~ roast pig. hmmmm.. i couldn't sleep, i paint my nails, and tried to slp after that, but still can't , so i end up bloggin here.. i'm missing him right now.. yea~
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