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Friday, March 17, 2006

arghz~ i woke up in the morning, feeling so fresh, preparing to go school, after i bathe, i took out my guitar, my mum saw, and ask why take out the guitar? i say cos today got lesson, don't need to pay wan.. can learn for free.. she scold mi crazy.. i think she's the wan who's being crazy.. i told her nicely why i brought the guitar to school, it's not like i shout at her or wad.. i was damn angry, but i hold back my temper and ask her, "why i talk to u nicely, u cannot answer back nicely, ytd also like that, today also like that, can don't shout at mi early in the morning anot, bring guitar to school got wrong meh.." then she say, " why cannot shout, u siao wanna learn this learn that, cannot study properly , must everyday go out, cannot tidy up the room, 'shen jing bing'.. you wanna move out, u wanna married, go la go la " see wad kinda f***ing words she use at mi for no reason at all i din even say anything about moving out or gettin married or wad.., in that particular morning she scold mi crazy umpteen times.. wad's wrong with her, i packed my room already eh, those books lyin on the tables were not mine, it's my sis.. i'm so damn piss off, she finish shouting me, now she's angry, she shout at my sis too, she say cannot go out, stay at home, do all the houseworks.. ha, my sis don't even give a damn

ytd, was veh peaceful in my family at night, while watching tv, i whispered to my mum, "mee, can i go class outing with my frens.. during last week of April, with my class mates..." i haven tell her where i'll be going.. guess wad she say.." u can dont everytime make decision urself anot, can study anot, i nv see ppl like ur age always wanna go outting, cannot concentrate on ur studies issit, ppl at ur age is meant for studies and nothing else.." wad f*** is this,in the first place i din even make any decision, i din even say," oh i bought the ticks le, die die also must go, i still put her on my mind, and her her for permission, at least i still respect her.. after hearing her shout, i dun intend at all to tell her where actually i wanna go, she'll sure scold mi 'shen jing bing'..

so she mean, ppl my age, cannot go outting, cannot learn other things, jus study and study, until when i pass out as a nurse then i can go wad, outting with my friends, as if next time i'll have so much time... wad's the problem with her, she can't talk nicely to mi, i'm already talking to her so nicely, at least she say cannot go nicely , then i'll not go lar, she must always shout at mi wan.. she say, "dunno why give birth to u and raise u up, so useless and stupid, everytime wanna go out only..." if in the first place she dun wan mi jus abort mi oki, don't let mi come into this world and hear her bark those f***king words at mi.. i've enough of all this shit okie, enough is enough.

she always think she's right i'm wrong, i'm also a human okie, i have feelings.....

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